"...and women killed it." -Dave Chappelle
Chivalry and equality does not go together.
Enough said.
Oct 30, 2008
Oct 23, 2008
birthday
a big thanks for those who wished me and shared the day of my birthday with me!
well cos i wasn't expecting much since i didn't plan to celebrate it at all but... thanks!
Even tho i dunno why. I'm supposed to be happy on my birthday aye? since its a special day. But the moment i woke up i don't feel happy.. like i dont feel anything specially excited about the day, and because i didn't feel happy, and i started to feel unhappy because i didnt felt happy because im supposed to be happy(kinda makes sense)then i tried to be happy for the rest of the day (because im supposed to be) which didn't work out really well because its like im forcing myself to be happy on my birthday O_o now i think about it, i think the only thing that made my day yesterday was the (only) hug that i got cos that hug made me forget this happy unhappy thing ... briefly. and now im still wondering why i didnt felt happy yesterday.
p.s
talking about hugs, theres like a universal hugging duration that is around 2 seconds
and when people are hugging they usually tend to put their heads on the leftside of the other person.
well cos i wasn't expecting much since i didn't plan to celebrate it at all but... thanks!
Even tho i dunno why. I'm supposed to be happy on my birthday aye? since its a special day. But the moment i woke up i don't feel happy.. like i dont feel anything specially excited about the day, and because i didn't feel happy, and i started to feel unhappy because i didnt felt happy because im supposed to be happy(kinda makes sense)then i tried to be happy for the rest of the day (because im supposed to be) which didn't work out really well because its like im forcing myself to be happy on my birthday O_o now i think about it, i think the only thing that made my day yesterday was the (only) hug that i got cos that hug made me forget this happy unhappy thing ... briefly. and now im still wondering why i didnt felt happy yesterday.
p.s
talking about hugs, theres like a universal hugging duration that is around 2 seconds
and when people are hugging they usually tend to put their heads on the leftside of the other person.
Oct 19, 2008
relationships
i dunno if im the only one who thinks things this way but.
everytime when i think about a possible relationship with someone, i instantly think of the future, and i deep inside know that this isn't a relationship that would last for a long time. and then. if it wont last for a long time why should i ... indulge myself into it?
you know... having this thought constant basically means i'll never get into a relationship with anyone at all, because you actually need to been in a relationship to really understand what is your ultimate ideal partner will be like. and just having this thought revolving around isnt .. really helping at all.
It really makes me think about those people who always breaks up within 2 months or so. Is it dedication or what? Why can't people think about relationships carefully before deciding so? Emotions isnt a nice thing to be played around with... relationships is a delicate form of bonding that really requires dedication. and without that dedication, it wont be a long lasting one.
and these things are 2 sided, something that both sides must contribute to. So what if you are fully dedicated to the other person if the other people isn't contributing anything? It really goes down to how much you love and how much faith and trust you have in that person.
Love is really a complex word to me. because love means ... that its like the extreme end of ... love. like you love chocolates means you'll never get bored or dislike it. If there comes a time when you dislike it, that means you only like it, not love. Thats why when your parents love you, they really do. But when a friend says that they love you.. its kinda.. not that real. Because we are young, we don't truly know what we love, all we know now is what we like.
everytime when i think about a possible relationship with someone, i instantly think of the future, and i deep inside know that this isn't a relationship that would last for a long time. and then. if it wont last for a long time why should i ... indulge myself into it?
you know... having this thought constant basically means i'll never get into a relationship with anyone at all, because you actually need to been in a relationship to really understand what is your ultimate ideal partner will be like. and just having this thought revolving around isnt .. really helping at all.
It really makes me think about those people who always breaks up within 2 months or so. Is it dedication or what? Why can't people think about relationships carefully before deciding so? Emotions isnt a nice thing to be played around with... relationships is a delicate form of bonding that really requires dedication. and without that dedication, it wont be a long lasting one.
and these things are 2 sided, something that both sides must contribute to. So what if you are fully dedicated to the other person if the other people isn't contributing anything? It really goes down to how much you love and how much faith and trust you have in that person.
Love is really a complex word to me. because love means ... that its like the extreme end of ... love. like you love chocolates means you'll never get bored or dislike it. If there comes a time when you dislike it, that means you only like it, not love. Thats why when your parents love you, they really do. But when a friend says that they love you.. its kinda.. not that real. Because we are young, we don't truly know what we love, all we know now is what we like.
Oct 13, 2008
Friends
"Friends" is a tricky aspect in everyone's lives.
You can never know who are your real friends.
You can never know who you can truly trust.
You can never know what they talk behind your back.
Why are people so ... on the surface. Sometimes when a person is talking to me, i can't feel their messages at all. It's like they're only talking to you to know your friend near you, and after that they just ignore you completely while they chill with your friends.
Then theres that smile again. That utter fake smile that .. is just plain digusting.
Smiles are weird, sometimes when someone smiles, their smile just makes you smile, and for some reason, you dunno why that is. But those smiles are real... and you just know it.
Gaaah, friends is a hard concept.
Its a thing where both sides agree to. But the majority of people can't take it further. Those who always just talks to you when theres a big group talk but never when its by themselves. Then they talk behind your back like they know alot about you.
Humans are digusting.
P.S
You know the feeling that you got alot to say but you just can't put it to words?
Hmmm... hard to describe.
You can never know who are your real friends.
You can never know who you can truly trust.
You can never know what they talk behind your back.
Why are people so ... on the surface. Sometimes when a person is talking to me, i can't feel their messages at all. It's like they're only talking to you to know your friend near you, and after that they just ignore you completely while they chill with your friends.
Then theres that smile again. That utter fake smile that .. is just plain digusting.
Smiles are weird, sometimes when someone smiles, their smile just makes you smile, and for some reason, you dunno why that is. But those smiles are real... and you just know it.
Gaaah, friends is a hard concept.
Its a thing where both sides agree to. But the majority of people can't take it further. Those who always just talks to you when theres a big group talk but never when its by themselves. Then they talk behind your back like they know alot about you.
Humans are digusting.
P.S
You know the feeling that you got alot to say but you just can't put it to words?
Hmmm... hard to describe.
Oct 12, 2008
Brainless
Hell, what is wrong with us.
You know how those old people always tell you to "do your work before playing around, then you can play freely with no stress." (hah! quote integrated into sentences!)
But yeah... that doesn't happen at all.
Humans (well me at least, and i'm a human) can never seem to do that. We (me) must always play and enjoy ourselves to the fullest just to realise that we're screwed in the near future. It's like we (me) can never work until the deadline comes... We (me) are given a whole months time to do something and during the majority of that time our (my) brain doesn't work at all until the last 3 days...
The last 3 days our (my) brain just suddenly goes into hypermode and you (i) can just imagine every shade of colour that exists (which has no relation to what you do)
Then the last 2 days you (i) start to freak out because of the tight timeframe you (i) have left, whilst, still imagining every shade of colours in the rainbow.
Then the last day comes and your (my) brain suddenly explodes and you (i) just get this magnificento idea and breezes through everything (even though using up your sleepy time).
So what the hell seriously.
Its like ... ghey. (<--- yes thats the best word i can come up with atm)
This is just so wtf, our (my) brains are seriously stuffed up.
You know how those old people always tell you to "do your work before playing around, then you can play freely with no stress." (hah! quote integrated into sentences!)
But yeah... that doesn't happen at all.
Humans (well me at least, and i'm a human) can never seem to do that. We (me) must always play and enjoy ourselves to the fullest just to realise that we're screwed in the near future. It's like we (me) can never work until the deadline comes... We (me) are given a whole months time to do something and during the majority of that time our (my) brain doesn't work at all until the last 3 days...
The last 3 days our (my) brain just suddenly goes into hypermode and you (i) can just imagine every shade of colour that exists (which has no relation to what you do)
Then the last 2 days you (i) start to freak out because of the tight timeframe you (i) have left, whilst, still imagining every shade of colours in the rainbow.
Then the last day comes and your (my) brain suddenly explodes and you (i) just get this magnificento idea and breezes through everything (even though using up your sleepy time).
So what the hell seriously.
Its like ... ghey. (<--- yes thats the best word i can come up with atm)
This is just so wtf, our (my) brains are seriously stuffed up.
Oct 10, 2008
Fate
so whats fate? fate is something that controls us all in a way. or its just a backup thing to blame your wrong doing onto. just another ignorant thought imo.
What if, your whole life is already controlled by fate?
no no, what if the whole of the world is controlled by fate?
no no, what if the whole of everything that is already existing is controlled by fate?
that there is nothing we can do to escape out of it?
the future of everyone is already destined to end at some point. that we are destined to evolve at some point. that we are destined to do something miraculous in the future?
so what you do right now, is controlled by fate.
every action you take, every choice you make.
So some people think of it this way, theres a box of egg rolls and a double layered chocolate mudcake with 2 extra chocolate flakes ontop of it. Which one will you choose? What i imagine is a split path infront of you, somewhat like a tree off a probablity path, and each of those singular paths will give you a totally opposite future possible. That creates an image that you have a choice to decide your future. But what if 'fate' already decided that you'll take the double layered chocolate mudcake with 2 extra chocolate flakes ontop of it and the other path actually, in reality, does not exist at all? So that makes it all the choices you make in this world an illusion. In the end, theres only one path to take and you have already decided to take that path when you're born.
It's scary when you think about it that way. So there are no coincidences in this world. Everything is already decided. When we found a new technology, when we discover new foundings. All of these events are already set in a future timeline. And whatever we do, we cannot change it. Because the 'whatever we do' part is also fated, and that is fated to lead you to a dead end. It's like theres an upper power toying with us. Reminds me of the movie 'Horton hears a Who!'. Kinda like when those people says "You can change your future, but you have to be active about it." What if your future is already destined to end in a way? Then whatever you do in that process won't matter at all because it will eventually lead back to that ending anyways?
Fate is a scary thing.
You cannot control it. Your other half is also a part of this ... circle. Something you can't force.
Your whole life is already destined. Forcing out from this circle would be crazy.
What if, your whole life is already controlled by fate?
no no, what if the whole of the world is controlled by fate?
no no, what if the whole of everything that is already existing is controlled by fate?
that there is nothing we can do to escape out of it?
the future of everyone is already destined to end at some point. that we are destined to evolve at some point. that we are destined to do something miraculous in the future?
so what you do right now, is controlled by fate.
every action you take, every choice you make.
So some people think of it this way, theres a box of egg rolls and a double layered chocolate mudcake with 2 extra chocolate flakes ontop of it. Which one will you choose? What i imagine is a split path infront of you, somewhat like a tree off a probablity path, and each of those singular paths will give you a totally opposite future possible. That creates an image that you have a choice to decide your future. But what if 'fate' already decided that you'll take the double layered chocolate mudcake with 2 extra chocolate flakes ontop of it and the other path actually, in reality, does not exist at all? So that makes it all the choices you make in this world an illusion. In the end, theres only one path to take and you have already decided to take that path when you're born.
It's scary when you think about it that way. So there are no coincidences in this world. Everything is already decided. When we found a new technology, when we discover new foundings. All of these events are already set in a future timeline. And whatever we do, we cannot change it. Because the 'whatever we do' part is also fated, and that is fated to lead you to a dead end. It's like theres an upper power toying with us. Reminds me of the movie 'Horton hears a Who!'. Kinda like when those people says "You can change your future, but you have to be active about it." What if your future is already destined to end in a way? Then whatever you do in that process won't matter at all because it will eventually lead back to that ending anyways?
Fate is a scary thing.
You cannot control it. Your other half is also a part of this ... circle. Something you can't force.
Your whole life is already destined. Forcing out from this circle would be crazy.
Oct 9, 2008
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