hmmmph.

Recently i think i'm losing myself.

Losing myself on who i am.
I know i changed alot this year, it may or may not be obvious, some people might be able to see it and some might not. But i'm sure because i'm.... me!

I have several group of friends, and i naturally, act differently (actually somewhat VERY different) while i'm with each one. I may be abit more cocky in one, abit more playful in one, abit more quiet in another. I'm not ... being fake or hypocritical (maybe not the best word to use in this situation) but it's just purely how i interact with these different people. The people in a specific group might have this common interest which we can all share on. We can joke about it etc. and this largely affects how we interact with each other. Which therefore affects how i act in that particular group. Though i think it's fine to have a 'mask' for different people. Even in everyday life you have a different mask to face your family, your friends, your tutor, your work mates, they can't all be the same.

And i just started thinking; How do i act when i'm with a complete stranger? What am i like? Who am i?

Just be yourself.

Is there a side of me just for strangers or is that just... myself? Or is it when all those different personas of me add up together, that makes me up? How can you ever truly be yourself?

So sometimes i think i should change, don't be so... restricted, act differently in different groups. Be more outgoing in the quiet group and abit more serious in the playful group.

And now i think i just fucked myself up.