Religious Talk

All my life (especially after leaving CAIS) i always classified myself as an Atheist. Merely because i don't believe in God. (<--- see i used a capital, thats respect for a non-existing entity)

But no, theres alot of things i actually believe in; afterlife, fate, etc.
Usually people who believes in afterlife are theists, but i still don't believe in a higher power (well that kind of contradicts because fate itself is a form of higher power). Nooooo put it this way, i don't believe in an entity with higher power. Anyways, does that make me a Buddhist then? Because Buddhism is one of the most common non-theistic religions that believe in afterlife. Yet i don't do anything that is buddhist-like (actually i have no idea what buddhists do).

This is pretty contradicting in some ways, because if i believe in afterlife, there should be a higher being that controls the plane of afterlife in some way.

But yet the only higher power that i believe exists is fate. Does that mean fate decides when we are allowed to reincarnate or to remain wandering?

This is what i think of afterlife:
People are born into the world and they live their life, then they die and then continue living their afterlife until they decide/allowed to reincarnate. Death is merely a step, maybe a big step, but just a transition from living in a place, to living in another. We might miss what we had in life but we will have new things in the afterlife. That being said, i still fear death. I fear the things that i will miss in life.

So what is fate? why do i ask that when i already have a whole page of entry written on that already? How should fate interfere with what we do in the afterlife? When are you allowed to reincarnate in the afterlife?

I think that is personal preference in a way. (This is really just what i'm thinking)
This is my theory of afterlife: I believe in the afterlife you can reborn whenever you want, but living in the afterlife basically means that you live for an eternity. If you choose to reborn instantly you risk dying again and your memories of both of your life before and afterlife will be erased. But no one would want to live for an eternity doing the same thing endlessly, so until you get to a point you're extremely bored you can reincarnate then. This is how fate jumps into it, fate controlled what you did when you're alive, fate controlled your personality, therefore, fate controlled your own personal preference in how/when you want to reincarnate.

I mean if you're an Athiest in real life, then why can't you be an Athiest in the afterlife? If you believe there is no god(...well higher being) in real life then why should there be one in the afterlife?

So what religion am i? or am i still an Atheist?
Being a Thiest (pun intended) means that you believe in a higher being.
But to me fate isn't a being, it isn't even a entity or a power.
To me it feels like its just part of the flow in the world, something that is integrated into the world. Kinda... like the force in Star Wars. It's just a natural flow of 'something'. Something that is just.... natural.

Ahha! i just thought of something. Ghosts can very well be someone in the afterlife who took a wrong step or something and fell between the boundary of both planes. Being said that i believe in the afterlife i'll still be pretty scared if i see a ghost tho, cos that will just prove to me that my theory is right.